I just.... want to feel beautiful. For once.

"What would you have said to her?"
"I don't know... That I was sorry. That I'll never know what it was like to be her. But I know what it's like to want to die. How it hurts to smile... and you try to feel, but you can't. You... hurt yourself on the outside trying to kill the thing on the inside.."

Songbird

For you, there'll be no more cryin'
For you, the sun will be shinin'
And I feel that when I'm with you, it's alright
I know it's right

To you, I'll give the world
To you, I'll never be cold
Cos I feel that when I'm with you, it's alright
I know it's right

And the songbirds are singing
Like they know the score
And I love you, I love you, I love you
Like never before

And I wish you all the love in the world
But most of all, I wish it from myself

And the songbirds keep singing
Like they know the score
And I love you, I love you, I love you
Like never before
Like never before
Like never before...

Landslide

I took my love and I took it down
I climbed a mountain and I turned around
And I saw my reflection in the snow-covered hills
When a landslide brought me down

Oh, mirror in the sky, what is love?
Can the child within my heart rise above?
Can I sail through the changing ocean tides?
Can I handle the seasons of my life?

Oh, oh
Oh, oh

Well I've been afraid of changing
Cause I've built my life around you
But time makes you bolder
Children get older
And I'm getting older, too

Well...

Well I've been afraid of changing
Cause I've built my life around you
But time makes you bolder
Children get older
And I'm getting older, too

Well, I'm getting older, too

So take this love and take it down
Yeah, if you climb a mountain and you turn around
And if you see my reflection in the snow-covered hills
When a landslide brought it down

And if you see my reflection in the snow-covered hills
Well, maybe
Well, maybe
Well, maybe
A landslide will bring you down...

Why did I do it?
What did it get me?
Scrapbooks filled with me in the background
Give 'em love and what does it get ya?
What does it get ya?
One quick look as each of them leaves you

All your life and what does it get ya?
Thanks a lot and out with the garbage
They take bows and you're batting zero

I had a dream
I dreamed it for you, June
It wasn't for me, Herbie
And if it wasn't for me
Then where would you be
Miss Gypsy Rose Lee?

Well someone tell me when is it my turn?
Don't I get a dream for myself?
Starting now it's gonna be my turn!
Gangway, world, get off of my runway!
Starting now I bat a thousand
This time, boys, I'm taking the bows and

Everything's coming up Rose!
Everything's coming up roses!
Everything's coming up Rose
This time for me!
For me! For me! For me! For me! For me!
... For me!

Teddy Geiger - "For You I Will"

This song just came up on a playlist in iTunes, and I immediately smiled. It reminded me of the last time I saw YOU; how I told you about how I had planned to sing it to you in order to tell you how I feel; how I sang part of it for you, and mostly, how you kissed me afterwards. It was a fairytale moment that I never wanted to end. You had all these emotions in your eyes, and I couldn't even begin to decipher half of them.

Now there's so many things I want to tell you. How I've come to like you so much more than I had first intended. How I fear that you don't feel even half of what I do. Mostly I'm just plain scared that I'm heading headfirst into a serious broken heart.

We agreed to take it slow, I know that. But part of me doesn't want to take it slow anymore. I want to be able to take your hand without having to gather up the courage first or be drunk. I want to be able to kiss you whenever I want. I want to tell you how I feel without having to fear rejection.
But for now, I'll just listen to that song and revel in the memories, because really, that's what I do best.

I'm wandering the streets
In a world underneath it all
But nothing seems to be
Nothing tastes as sweet as what I can't have
Like you and the way that you're
Twisting your hair around your finger
But tonight I'm not afraid to tell you
What I feel about you

Oh, I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
And cannon ball into the water
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will
For you I will

Forgive me if I st-stutter
From all of the clutter in my head
Cos I could fall asleep in those eyes
Like a waterbed
Do I seem familiar?
I've crossed you in hallways a thousand times
No more camouflage, I wanna be exposed
And not be afraid to fall

Oh, I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
And cannon ball into the water
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will
You always want what you can't have
But I've got to try
I'll muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will
For you I will
For you I will

If I could dim the lights in the mall and create a mood
I would
Shout out your name so it echoes in every room
I would
That's what I'll do
That's what I'll do
That's what I'll do
To get through to you, yeah

I'll muster every ounce of confidence I have
And cannon ball into the water
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will
You always want what you can't have
But I've got to try
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will
For you I will
For you I will

All my life I've been good, but now

Whoa, I'm thinking what the hell!