Show me a silly face.



Me and my best Casper - playing around with my baby.




My best Nadja at a grafitti wall - saw this and took a snapshot.




Nadja again - surprise pictures are always the best.



A Little Fall

A breath away

From where you are

I've come home from so far...

So don't you fret, monsieur Marius

I don't feel any pain

A little fall of rain

Can hardly hurt me now

I'm here

That's all I need to know

And you will keep me safe

And you will keep me close

And rain...

Will make the flowers...

... Grow.

Grumpy and Old

My back is killing me! I can't stand, sit or lie down without being in constant pain.
I want to start on the storyboard for my shortfilm, but I can't draw. No really, call me Hermione.
I'm getting nowhere near enough sleep because I spent the last two nights writing.
I'm stressing over my costumes for "All That Jazz".
I'm absolutely broke because my bank sucks and can't pull their heads out of their arses long enough to get my savings transferred.
I'm behind on watching Glee. I want to watch the latest episode, but at this point I NEED to sleep, or I'll die.
I'm in desperate need of a job.

... But on the bright side I'm really looking forward to finishing the first draft of my script and get some feedback!

Wishful Thinking

I want a camera so badly!!! Hopefully I'll get my money soon... Then my blog is going to explode with landscape pictures and photos of Marie and Casper.... Probably some of myself too if Casper gets hold of it. Silly boy... who just so happens to be one of my best friends <3

Life is pretty much beautiful. No really, it is.

Smoker's delight

French inhaling... Because I can.

Make-up blogging is something I can do, though.

E/S primer (Gosh), Eyeshadow (Gosh,"Sand), eyeliner kohl (Gosh, "Expresso"), mascara (Helena Rubenstein "Lash Queen" for length, Maybelline "The Falsies Volum' Express" for volume), foundation (Maybelline "Dream Satin Liquid")

First ever outfit-post

I had a moment of inspiration. No, I might not wear the latest fashion, but there's got to be others with a style similar to mine. I don't think I would ever only post about fashion (it's not like anyone reads this anyway), but I thought it would be funny to try. It probably won't be attempted again though, at least not until I've bought my camera (Similar to Marie's at Vilde Kaniner ), because really, the quality of my webcam is in the shitter.

Anywho! Here goes.

Please never mind the facts that a) the quality is horrid and b) I couldn't pull a good pose if my life depended on it.

Grey boyfriend-jeans (H&M), dark grey ribbed tank (H&M), black button up cardigan (H&M), necklace w/ triskelion pendant (my local eco-store).

How he needs me so, and he'll be the last to know it...

Having another bad day. Seems I have quite a lot of those lately. I just want to bury myself under my blanket and never come out again.

Don't wish, don't start - wishing only wounds the heart.

First post from my iPod Touch - This will make blogging easier from now on.

I had an amazing weekend (Thurs.-Sat.) with some of my best friends. You guys make my heart smile <3

Slowly, but definitely on the mend.

"I'm sorry it had to be like this."

Yeah... Me too.

I'm done with love. It hurts too much.

And who do you think you are
Runnin' round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart?

And yes, I understand what you're telling me. Doesn't mean my heart will accept it or that it hurts less, though. Because it does. It feels like someone stabbed me before ripping my heart out and stomping on it.

Somehow I always had the feeling that you would break my heart, though.

I never... Thought I could hurt like this. I really thought you and me had the chance to be something beautiful.

I just... I just wanted one shot at love and happiness. Just one. Was that really too much to ask?

Could you be the one to make me smile again? Would you?

I guess I knew this was coming sooner or later... Doesn't mean it hurts less. Especially when I realised I feel more for you than I thought I did.

Guess I'll just have to sit tight through it and hope I make it. Just don't be mad if I don't feel the same after some time. I'm not saying I won't, but I'm not saying I might either.

How do you know if life is worth living?

I just.... want to feel beautiful. For once.

"What would you have said to her?"
"I don't know... That I was sorry. That I'll never know what it was like to be her. But I know what it's like to want to die. How it hurts to smile... and you try to feel, but you can't. You... hurt yourself on the outside trying to kill the thing on the inside.."

Songbird

For you, there'll be no more cryin'
For you, the sun will be shinin'
And I feel that when I'm with you, it's alright
I know it's right

To you, I'll give the world
To you, I'll never be cold
Cos I feel that when I'm with you, it's alright
I know it's right

And the songbirds are singing
Like they know the score
And I love you, I love you, I love you
Like never before

And I wish you all the love in the world
But most of all, I wish it from myself

And the songbirds keep singing
Like they know the score
And I love you, I love you, I love you
Like never before
Like never before
Like never before...

Landslide

I took my love and I took it down
I climbed a mountain and I turned around
And I saw my reflection in the snow-covered hills
When a landslide brought me down

Oh, mirror in the sky, what is love?
Can the child within my heart rise above?
Can I sail through the changing ocean tides?
Can I handle the seasons of my life?

Oh, oh
Oh, oh

Well I've been afraid of changing
Cause I've built my life around you
But time makes you bolder
Children get older
And I'm getting older, too

Well...

Well I've been afraid of changing
Cause I've built my life around you
But time makes you bolder
Children get older
And I'm getting older, too

Well, I'm getting older, too

So take this love and take it down
Yeah, if you climb a mountain and you turn around
And if you see my reflection in the snow-covered hills
When a landslide brought it down

And if you see my reflection in the snow-covered hills
Well, maybe
Well, maybe
Well, maybe
A landslide will bring you down...

Why did I do it?
What did it get me?
Scrapbooks filled with me in the background
Give 'em love and what does it get ya?
What does it get ya?
One quick look as each of them leaves you

All your life and what does it get ya?
Thanks a lot and out with the garbage
They take bows and you're batting zero

I had a dream
I dreamed it for you, June
It wasn't for me, Herbie
And if it wasn't for me
Then where would you be
Miss Gypsy Rose Lee?

Well someone tell me when is it my turn?
Don't I get a dream for myself?
Starting now it's gonna be my turn!
Gangway, world, get off of my runway!
Starting now I bat a thousand
This time, boys, I'm taking the bows and

Everything's coming up Rose!
Everything's coming up roses!
Everything's coming up Rose
This time for me!
For me! For me! For me! For me! For me!
... For me!

Teddy Geiger - "For You I Will"

This song just came up on a playlist in iTunes, and I immediately smiled. It reminded me of the last time I saw YOU; how I told you about how I had planned to sing it to you in order to tell you how I feel; how I sang part of it for you, and mostly, how you kissed me afterwards. It was a fairytale moment that I never wanted to end. You had all these emotions in your eyes, and I couldn't even begin to decipher half of them.

Now there's so many things I want to tell you. How I've come to like you so much more than I had first intended. How I fear that you don't feel even half of what I do. Mostly I'm just plain scared that I'm heading headfirst into a serious broken heart.

We agreed to take it slow, I know that. But part of me doesn't want to take it slow anymore. I want to be able to take your hand without having to gather up the courage first or be drunk. I want to be able to kiss you whenever I want. I want to tell you how I feel without having to fear rejection.
But for now, I'll just listen to that song and revel in the memories, because really, that's what I do best.

I'm wandering the streets
In a world underneath it all
But nothing seems to be
Nothing tastes as sweet as what I can't have
Like you and the way that you're
Twisting your hair around your finger
But tonight I'm not afraid to tell you
What I feel about you

Oh, I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
And cannon ball into the water
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will
For you I will

Forgive me if I st-stutter
From all of the clutter in my head
Cos I could fall asleep in those eyes
Like a waterbed
Do I seem familiar?
I've crossed you in hallways a thousand times
No more camouflage, I wanna be exposed
And not be afraid to fall

Oh, I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
And cannon ball into the water
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will
You always want what you can't have
But I've got to try
I'll muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will
For you I will
For you I will

If I could dim the lights in the mall and create a mood
I would
Shout out your name so it echoes in every room
I would
That's what I'll do
That's what I'll do
That's what I'll do
To get through to you, yeah

I'll muster every ounce of confidence I have
And cannon ball into the water
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will
You always want what you can't have
But I've got to try
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will
For you I will
For you I will

All my life I've been good, but now

Whoa, I'm thinking what the hell!

Dear Diary, mood:

When you ask, "Do you wanna dance, my barefoot Cindarella?

Don't need no slippers or a party dress

The way you're looking right now is what I like the best"

And then you

Say, "Do you wanna take a chance? Stay with me forever

No one will ever be more beautiful

 My barefoot, my barefoot Cindarella."

Is it wrong that I want to be your barefoot Cindarella?

And the cynics were outraged
Screaming, "This is absurd!"
'Cause for a moment the band of thieves
In ripped-up jeans got to rule the world

Long live all the walls we crashed through
While the kingdoms lights shined just for me and you
I was screaming, long live all the magic we made
And bring on all the pretenders, I'm not afraid

Long live all the mountains we moved
I had the time of my life fighting dragons with you
I was screaming, long live for the look on your face
And bring on all the pretenders, one day we will be remembered.

Dear Taylor Swift. Please stop reading my diary. Sincerely, every girl in the world.

A Very Potter Sequel - Hermione Can't Draw

Team Starkid, I fucking less than three you.

Converse-party at rehearsal with Sceptor last Saturday.

Cookies if you can guess which pair is mine.



I thought I wanted someone perfect as can be

When what I wanted was the one who is perfect for me...

Dear Diary. Mood:

How do you feel today?

Like Eponine from Les Miserables. If she was lesbian, Marius was a girl and Cosette was a guy...

I will never think you're not beautiful.

Taylor Swift-Enchanted Lyrics on Screen

For you. For making your way into my life like you did. It has been enchanting.

Dear diary. Mood:

... Picture totally stolen from sweet Marie's blog de vilde kaniner . Nudity can be beautiful.

Once again, it's been ages since I blogged. That's why I'm thinking of starting a new way of blogging. No more long posts, except for when it's needed. It will be random little snippets of my daily life. Yeah.

Happy New Year!

Alright, it might be a little late for that, but still...

I'm gonna try and blog more often, even though no-one really reads it. At least just for the sake of my sanity :)
I've developed an unhealthy Glee-obsession. I want more episodes now! lol. Nah, it's cool. I'll just watch the old episodes over and over again... And over... And over... And over... Lol :)

I'm struggling a bit with life atm. My depression has come back, and it has hit me harder this time. It really sucks, but I'm on my meds now, just waiting for them to kick in, and then just hoping I'll make it through the semester. I've got a small exam Thursday. I'm not hoping for a good grade, I'm just hoping to pass really. It's really my dream-job, so I would really like to finish the 3½ years of education. I'm only ½ year into it, so I have another 3 years to go.

On a lighter note, I've re-discovered my inner tween. I've taken a liking to the former boyband NLT ("It stands for Not Like Them, but we totally were." - Kevin McHale. Lol!), and it's really as boyband as they come, except that their sound is slightly more street than, say, Backstreet Boys and stuff. Besides, their songs have great beats designed for dancing - which the boys do really well too, I might add!

I totally splurged some weeks ago and bought the Coastal Scents 88 Prism Palette, and I don't regret it. It was money well spent! I'm so in love with all the fabulous colours, and I don't even need an excuse to use it, I play around with different makeup-designs on a daily basis lol. I love it!

Anyway, just a quick update, wish me luck on getting back in the Twitter-scene! Hopefully it'll work out better after installing the Twitter-app on my iPod :)